Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Writing, hurricanes and weariness

I have hurricane fatigue and I don't even live near Texas or LA. The constant photos and news coverage and my FB feed has left me stressed, sad and weary. I want to help. I am praying. But there is little else I can do, other than give money. And that is so frustrating. I hate seeing people in pain, losing their homes, their pets, their loved ones. It's horrible.

So at some point I have to pull myself back from everything, yeah, maybe like a turtle in its shell. Self-preservation. Irma is out there and DH wants us to stock up on pet meds and fluids for Holly (she gets 200 ml each day to keep her alive). It's exhausting, and troublesome, hurricane season. And the storms are bound to be worse with global warming.

Anyway, all I can do is get ready this weekend and do the things that we haven't done all season, like buy canned food and trim the trees and make sure we are ready. If it gets close to us, DH buys gas to store for the generator. I hate being alone during a hurricane, but he has to work and man the hospital's generators in case they lose power. HE has a really important job during a hurricane.

Hopefully we won't get any storms near us. But it's a crap shoot each season.

Last night the stress got to me. I choked again on my dinner and spent the rest of the night throwing up. Gross. My throat muscles close up and I can't breathe. Happened in Spearfish at a restaurant. I threw up all over my dinner at the table. Gross. The only good thing was there was no one else at the restaurant except staff.

I have to remind myself to chew and chew and chew and slowly. Don't eat in a hurry. And water is a culprit because I swallow a lot and my throat muscles squeeze tight. My poor esophagus probably looks like the inside of a pipe filled with corrosion.

Anyway, I need to get back to writing Mating Frenzy. I do like this story a lot. Must focus. Trying to finish this weekend. TG we have labor day off. Hopefully I will NOT have to spend that day prepping for a hurricane.

Monday, August 28, 2017


Ah Monday, you slay me. Spent the weekend looking at the horrific devastation in TX, and writing, trying to figure out what I can do to help. Sent some pet food via Amazon. Will do more.

And the day job... lots of projects, some drama, projects, drama...sigh.

But I'm up to 36,000 words on Kieran's story. It's longer, of course, than I had expected. I'm on the second half, which is set in Florida. Need to focus on their goals and conflict. Ella's is she wants to be free and break out of her rut of a life, and now suddenly she is tossed into it. All her life she's been told fantasy and imagination are bad, and now she's thrust rudely into a dangerous world where things can kill with claws.

Kieran's is that skins are bad, the skin world is bad. But Ella has lived in Skin her whole life, so he is beginning to bend a little. Still, he hates the skin world, and fears failing her like he failed his sister.

Darcy, new character, she is going to have a love interest and maybe I'll write a short story around her. The love interest will be a half-human, half shifter, I think.

Tough on days like this to get motivated and creative. This schedule of working 9-10 hour days three days a week and then off, is tiring. Trying to find ways to adjust and squeeze in "me" time. Did not have much this weekend.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Making good progress

I worked hard Monday thru Wed at the day job, finishing a couple of projects. Then on Thursday, I actually worked on my book. I didn't take time off to relax, but set to the work.

Yesterday, Friday, I made my goal. I finally reached 30,000 words on Kieran's story. That was huge. I did it despite having to lug poor Cook cook to the vet bc she had major diarhea. Bloody. But I got an appointment at 9:15 and they are right around the corner, so it was much faster than hauling her 25 minutes away to our regular vet. And sometimes I can't get in until later.

Then in mid-morning, our neighbor's dog got loose. Again. Drama, drama. I looked outside, and there he was, running around. No one wants to see the poor dog get hurt or hit by a car. I hope they finally can get him locked up.

So I kept plugging away and last night DH needed a drink so we went out. Came home to watch coverage of the hurricane, and then I reached my writing goal.

Still need to finish the part of the book where they are in CO, and then head to Florida. Almost done. Needed a new scene in the library, so Ella and Kieran have more "touch" time, meaning, getting to know you time and he helps her with translations.

Hoping to write another 2-5,000 words this weekend, and finish by Labor Day. Book heads to an editor on Sept. 15. Yay!

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

need a vacation after vacation

I was soooo productive while we were away. Got new ideas for the story, was really inspired, and I wrote like mad. Now I am back to the day job and wiped out. I'm so exhausted I'm ready to drop. Worked 10 hours today because I had a huge project due.

This is the quandary I have been faced with for the last few months. I work about 9-10 hours for three days at the day job, and by Thursday, my "day off" for writing, I"m exhausted. And then it is catching up on promo stuff like sending out newsletters, or updating newsletters, etc. So I don't even get to write until Friday and if I have a doctor's appointment or a vet appointment, forget it.

That was why I was so pleased last weekend with the progress made on Mating Frenzy. Despite going away, despite not having a dedicated day to writing, I squeezed it in. I wrote on my alpha smart on the drive over, I scribbled ideas on my phone. It felt wonderful!

I don't know what the answer is. I really don't.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Writing and getting organized

So my writing schedule is pretty much set. My two "experimental" projects with other names look like they will tank. It's really tough these days to set up pen names and get a following thru indie publishing. It takes time, a lot of promo and effort, and money, and I'm not willing to expend much on this.

I had reasoned that 2017 would be the summer of experimenting. Now I have done it, and depending upon how one name does next month, I'll finish the second puppy book, publish it and that's it.

I'm more concerned with finishing Kieran's story. I want to finish it by Sept. 9th. I have off Labor Day from work, so I can work on it that day.Then my plan is to get it edited, and publish it by Oct. 1. I'm going to possibly participate in a big iBooks sale with one of my books that month, so that will be a nice bit of promo for that book.

It's all about the money right now.

But I am having fun with Kieran's book. He's such a tease. Fun, too. Not serious and brooding like some of the wizards.

My promo plans include putting the prologue for free on Book Funnel, and possibly part of the first chapter as a gift/way to hook readers. Newsletter, of course. We shall see.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Productive, fun weekend

Thursday, we drove over to Ft. Myers Beach for dh's birthday. It was wonderful. We took the dogs and stayed at the pet friendly inn where we always stay with them. They love it. I walked Cookie in her pink stroller on the beach each a.m. and DH walked Holly on a leash.

I got lots of lovely inspiration for The Mating Frenzy, and wrote 9,500 words, the most productivity I've had in a long while.

And now we are home. I'm depressed. Not because we are home, but because it's back to routine. We had such a lovely mini vaca - and it was so nice spending quality time together - taking a sunset cruise, walking on the beach with the dogs, and doing simple things.


Monday, August 14, 2017

Frustrating weekend

We had a great afternoon yesterday when we went to a friend's house for a little wine and cheese party. Drank wonderful wine, had some snacks, including a low fat cheese dip I made. Then a  friend from out of town came over and we bbqed chicken outside.

But it is frustrating for me because I had four days off and I only was able to write 5,000 words all weekend. Thursday I had errands. Because I worked such long hours M-W, I could not get anything done until then. It's the pattern - work and go home and eat and collapse.

So thursday, the day I started a new diet, I went to Best Buy to get a new tape recorder to dictate story notes and scenes to input into Dragon, which helps. I also bought a new journal for scheduling, and did some other catching up stuff. No writing. Author stuff like sending out a newsletter, etc. Trying to get my lousy book sales to rise a little.

Friday, forget it. Poor Holly was sick with a painful tummy, so at 8 a.m. I was at the ER with her. Got her home at 2 - 2:30. Day was shot, as I was trying to get her to eat, relax, etc. worried about her. No writing.

Saturday was better. DH was at the train park, so I had breakfast with a good friend at Denny's - egg whites and grape tomatoes and whole wheat toast and fruit. Got home around 10:30 and started working. Worked on and off, but only wrote 2,500 words. Then we went out to eat.

Sunday, breakfast in Lake Worth, Kmart to buy a lock and key for a locker for the new fitness center I plan to join, and then home. Then to publix for shopping. Made a low fat cheese dip for yesterdays party, then fed the doggies. Trying to feed Holly 4x a day to go easier on her tummy.

Finally got to writing in the afternoon, wrote 1500 words.

So I'm at 10,000 words on Kieran's story, which isn't bad except I had wanted to be at 15,000 at least. I need to get most of this finished by this month's end bc next month I HAVE to start back with the HQ story.


Wednesday, August 9, 2017

New book

I've gone back to my "roots," so to speak, and started another Werewolves book, this time with a jaguar shifter, but the heroine is a wolf. I have 5,000 words already, which is terrific. It will be even more terrific when I can get up to 20,000 words by next week.

I set aside the Tia books because I need to write something that at least will sell, even if it's only a few hundred copies. thus, this book.

Hoping this goes well!

Monday, August 7, 2017

August already... wow

I've slowed down. Don't know what happened, but all the sudden I've been exhausted. Could be partly due to RWA late July. That conference is terrific, but always tires me out and then I come home, unpack, do laundry and boom! Back to the day job. Plus last week on my days off I had personal stuff to attend to, so the writing suffered.

I'm returning to another wolf book because I have the sinking feeling that the Tia books are gonna tank, waste of time and money and these days, I hate wasting both. I have only 10,000 words left on the puppy peril book, but I set it aside yesterday to work on the Mating book, which will introduce a new series. See, I have a small but very loyal group of core readers and those are the ones I know will buy my books. Tia has no readers. She "may" gain some from the boxed set, but it's a gamble.

It's a damn frustrating business these days. I remember well back in 2014 when all I had to do was release a book, put it on FB and I'd get lots of sales and make lovely money. It's why I was able to go PT at the day job. But even with the loss of income, I have no regrets about the PT at the day job because my health was suffering.

Today is Monday, and I have worked all day and I'm too tired to go home and write. Maybe if I got more than 4 hours of sleep each night, continuously, it would help.

Tomorrow is another day, as Scarlett always said. Hopefully tomorrow I will write!